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I hate this title

Posted By: Forrest of B.org Date: 8/9/04 2:09 p.m.
In Response To: Re: Eternally Bored (Adam Ashwell)

I am very angry and at work right now so I'll try to make this brief and not full of profanity.
I've spent my entire goddamned life trying to measure up to other people's standards, which are always rising, and by the time I meet what was the standard when I started it's risen again. This is why Eternal was never released in the eight mother fucking years it was in initial development. It was gonna be ten maps - just ten little maps, each about as big as an M1 map. Then, oh no, see, your levels all have to be 1024 polys. Not only that, if they don't emply _ALL THESE NEW AND LATEST TRICKS_ then you're a worthless excuse for a human being. (Look at Bungie's maps. They're REALLY FUCKING SIMPLE and low-poly 'boxy' rooms like you all despise, and yet you still worship them). And then EVIL comes out... and now you have to have all new monsters, and weapons, and textures too. Oh yeah, and of course a whole new interface. But whoa look at this, scenarios with LOTS OF EXTRA TEXTURES, and stacked monsters, now you need even MORE NEW SHIT. Now there's A1, it all has to be hires, you need music, rearrange everything with MML, it has to run on Windows too, OH but make make sure you maintain OS9 compatibility too! And who the FUCK cares anymore anyway? Marathon is old, outdated lores SHIT that nobody gives a flying fuck about, you'd think in a community for something like that you could finally hit some kind of ceiling and say "this is good enough". By the time I ever make anything that's good enough for modern standards, that won't be modern anymore and I'll have wasted my time, so in that case I don't see why the fuck I should do anything at all.
Eternal will be released as I have planned it. CONSTRUCTIVE CRITICISM that is NOT COMPARISON TO OTHERS (especially shit that hasn't even been released *cough*Sigma*cough*) is welcome. Steve's comments have been generally nice and useful. Adam, Simon, Goran, you just make me feel like shit. Do NOT say "well it's not as good as X", or "the standard has been raised, it's just not up to par". Do not imply that I am going about things all wrong and should just start over or redo everything. (I've done that four times already). And ESPECIALLY don't tell me that it's OK that I suck compared to so-and-so because so-and-so is just so much better than everyone.
I know I suck. At everything. My entire life is one big fat vat of mediocrity. I literally, physically *beat the fuck out of myself* over it every day. If Eternal reflects that, then at least it's accurate.

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Eternally Bored Steve Levinson 8/8/04 7:57 a.m.

Re: Eternally Bored Simon of team Sigma 8/8/04 9:24 a.m.

Re: Eternally Bored deathmonger 8/8/04 12:01 p.m.

Re: Eternally Bored Adam Ashwell 8/8/04 12:10 p.m.

Re: Eternally Bored Mr. Cactus 8/8/04 12:26 p.m.

Re: Eternally Bored blake37 8/8/04 1:11 p.m.

RE: Eternally Bored Blayne 8/8/04 3:45 p.m.

Re: Eternally Bored D-M.A. 8/8/04 7:31 p.m.

Re: Eternally Bored Forrest of B.org 8/8/04 4:24 p.m.

Re: Eternally Bored Steve Levinson 8/8/04 5:39 p.m.

Oh, and yes, I'm using the 512 high-res textures *NM* Steve Levinson 8/8/04 6:55 p.m.

Re: Eternally Bored Forrest of B.org 8/8/04 6:59 p.m.

Re: Eternally Bored Steve Levinson 8/8/04 8:46 p.m.

Re: Eternally Bored - and bugged Steve Levinson 8/8/04 9:10 p.m.

Re: Eternally Bored - and bugged Forrest of B.org 8/8/04 10:00 p.m.

Re: Eternally Bored - and bugged Steve Levinson 8/9/04 3:25 a.m.

Re: Eternally Bored - and bugged goran 8/9/04 4:06 a.m.

Re: Eternally Bored - and bugged Adam Ashwell 8/9/04 6:19 a.m.

Re: Eternally Bored - and bugged goran 8/9/04 7:34 a.m.

Re: Eternally Bored - and bugged Adam Ashwell 8/9/04 7:43 a.m.

Re: Eternally Bored - and bugged goran 8/9/04 7:50 a.m.

Re: Eternally Bored - and bugged Adam Ashwell 8/9/04 8:08 a.m.

Burning in the light of the moon Forrest of B.org 8/9/04 11:32 p.m.

Re: Burning in the light of the moon Adam Ashwell 8/10/04 5:02 a.m.

Re: Eternally Bored - and bugged Lunair 8/9/04 9:59 a.m.

Re: Eternally Bored - and bugged Blayne 8/9/04 2:16 p.m.

Re: Eternally Bored - and bugged goran 8/9/04 3:18 p.m.

Re: Eternally Bored - and bugged Adam Ashwell 8/9/04 6:26 a.m.

Re: Eternally Bored - and bugged Adam Ashwell 8/9/04 6:57 a.m.

Re: Eternally Bored - and bugged Steve Levinson 8/10/04 4:41 p.m.

Don't let this go to your head Steve Levinson 8/11/04 9:00 a.m.

Re: Don't let this go to your head Adam Ashwell 8/11/04 9:21 a.m.

Re: Eternally Bored - and bugged Adam Ashwell 8/9/04 10:30 a.m.

Re: Eternally Bored - and bugged Steve Levinson 8/9/04 5:23 p.m.

Anyone notice that Enforcers can't kill you? *NM* a disreputable source 8/8/04 8:20 p.m.

Yes - 1 of the bugs - Ernie, is this your fault? *NM* Steve Levinson 8/8/04 8:48 p.m.

Re: Yes - 1 of the bugs - Ernie, is this your faul Forrest of B.org 8/8/04 10:02 p.m.

Re: Yes - 1 of the bugs - Ernie, is this your faul Ori 8/8/04 11:10 p.m.

Re: Yes - 1 of the bugs - Ernie, is this your faul goran 8/9/04 12:58 a.m.

Re: Yes - 1 of the bugs - Ernie, is this your faul Adam Ashwell 8/9/04 5:57 a.m.

Re: Yes - 1 of the bugs - Ernie, is this your faul blake37 8/9/04 6:03 a.m.

Re: Yes - 1 of the bugs - Ernie, is this your faul Adam Ashwell 8/9/04 6:03 a.m.

Re: Yes - 1 of the bugs - Ernie, is this your faul Yossarian 8/9/04 6:55 a.m.

Re: Yes - 1 of the bugs - Ernie, is this your faul Adam Ashwell 8/9/04 7:03 a.m.

Re: Yes - 1 of the bugs Blayne 8/9/04 3:40 p.m.

Re: Eternally Bored Adam Ashwell 8/9/04 5:40 a.m.

Re: Eternally Bored Adam Ashwell 8/9/04 5:41 a.m.

Re: Eternally Bored goran 8/9/04 7:44 a.m.

Re: Eternally Bored Johannes Gunnar 8/9/04 8:04 a.m.

Re: Eternally Bored Adam Ashwell 8/9/04 8:06 a.m.

Re: Eternally Bored Forrest of B.org 8/9/04 9:04 a.m.

Re: Eternally Bored Adam Ashwell 8/9/04 9:16 a.m.

Re: Eternally Bored Forrest of B.org 8/9/04 9:25 a.m.

Re: Eternally Bored Adam Ashwell 8/9/04 9:41 a.m.

Re: Eternally Bored Adam Ashwell 8/9/04 9:45 a.m.

I hate this title Forrest of B.org 8/9/04 2:09 p.m.

Re: I hate this title Forrest of B.org 8/9/04 2:27 p.m.

Re: I hate this title Adam Ashwell 8/9/04 2:49 p.m.

Re: I hate this title Forrest of B.org 8/9/04 3:00 p.m.

Re: I hate this title Adam Ashwell 8/9/04 3:05 p.m.

Re: I hate this title Adam Ashwell 8/9/04 3:13 p.m.

Re: I hate this title goran 8/9/04 4:07 p.m.

Re: I hate this title Adam Ashwell 8/9/04 4:12 p.m.

Re: I hate this title blake37 8/9/04 3:50 p.m.

Re: I hate this title deathmonger 8/9/04 5:11 p.m.

I'd hate to see you *really* fly off the handle Steve Levinson 8/9/04 6:03 p.m.

A lesson for us all Plague Bearer aka Nick 8/9/04 8:09 p.m.

Re: A lesson for us all D-M.A. 8/10/04 8:34 a.m.

Re: A lesson for us all blake37 8/10/04 8:44 a.m.

Trojan infected PC = porn spam bot *NM* D-M.A. 8/10/04 9:33 a.m.

fun, i'll send your comp a get well card blake37 8/10/04 11:06 a.m.

Re: Trojan infected PC = porn spam bot deathmonger 8/10/04 12:17 p.m.

Re: I hate this title Jacke 8/10/04 5:16 a.m.

Re: I hate this title D-M.A. 8/10/04 8:26 a.m.

Re: Eternally Bored blake37 8/9/04 6:02 a.m.

On TC, everything attacks from the start *NM* Steve Levinson 8/9/04 5:42 p.m.

ok, then im just a wuss ;-) *NM* blake37 8/10/04 4:17 a.m.

Re: Eternally Bored Forrest of B.org 8/10/04 8:10 a.m.

Re: Eternally Bored blake37 8/10/04 8:34 a.m.

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: I am very angry and at work right now so I'll try to make this brief and not : full of profanity. : I've spent my entire goddamned life trying to measure up to other people's : standards, which are always rising, and by the time I meet what was the : standard when I started it's risen again. This is why Eternal was never : released in the eight mother fucking years it was in initial development. : It was gonna be ten maps - just ten little maps, each about as big as an : M1 map. Then, oh no, see, your levels all have to be 1024 polys. Not only : that, if they don't emply _ALL THESE NEW AND LATEST TRICKS_ then you're a : worthless excuse for a human being. (Look at Bungie's maps. They're REALLY : FUCKING SIMPLE and low-poly 'boxy' rooms like you all despise, and yet you : still worship them). And then EVIL comes out... and now you have to have : all new monsters, and weapons, and textures too. Oh yeah, and of course a : whole new interface. But whoa look at this, scenarios with LOTS OF EXTRA : TEXTURES, and stacked monsters, now you need even MORE NEW SHIT. Now : there's A1, it all has to be hires, you need music, rearrange everything : with MML, it has to run on Windows too, OH but make make sure you maintain : OS9 compatibility too! And who the FUCK cares anymore anyway? Marathon is : old, outdated lores SHIT that nobody gives a flying fuck about, you'd : think in a community for something like that you could finally hit some : kind of ceiling and say "this is good enough". By the time I : ever make anything that's good enough for modern standards, that won't be : modern anymore and I'll have wasted my time, so in that case I don't see : why the fuck I should do anything at all. : Eternal will be released as I have planned it. CONSTRUCTIVE CRITICISM that is : NOT COMPARISON TO OTHERS (especially shit that hasn't even been released : *cough*Sigma*cough*) is welcome. Steve's comments have been generally nice : and useful. Adam, Simon, Goran, you just make me feel like shit. Do NOT : say "well it's not as good as X", or "the standard has been : raised, it's just not up to par". Do not imply that I am going about : things all wrong and should just start over or redo everything. (I've done : that four times already). And ESPECIALLY don't tell me that it's OK that I : suck compared to so-and-so because so-and-so is just so much better than : everyone. : I know I suck. At everything. My entire life is one big fat vat of : mediocrity. I literally, physically *beat the fuck out of myself* over it : every day. If Eternal reflects that, then at least it's accurate.

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Eternally Bored	Steve Levinson	8/8/04 7:57 a.m.
Re: Eternally Bored	Simon of team Sigma	8/8/04 9:24 a.m.
Re: Eternally Bored	deathmonger	8/8/04 12:01 p.m.
Re: Eternally Bored	Adam Ashwell	8/8/04 12:10 p.m.
Re: Eternally Bored	Mr. Cactus	8/8/04 12:26 p.m.
Re: Eternally Bored	blake37	8/8/04 1:11 p.m.
RE: Eternally Bored	Blayne	8/8/04 3:45 p.m.
Re: Eternally Bored	D-M.A.	8/8/04 7:31 p.m.
Re: Eternally Bored	Forrest of B.org	8/8/04 4:24 p.m.
Re: Eternally Bored	Steve Levinson	8/8/04 5:39 p.m.
Oh, and yes, I'm using the 512 high-res textures NM	Steve Levinson	8/8/04 6:55 p.m.
Re: Eternally Bored	Forrest of B.org	8/8/04 6:59 p.m.
Re: Eternally Bored	Steve Levinson	8/8/04 8:46 p.m.
Re: Eternally Bored - and bugged	Steve Levinson	8/8/04 9:10 p.m.
Re: Eternally Bored - and bugged	Forrest of B.org	8/8/04 10:00 p.m.
Re: Eternally Bored - and bugged	Steve Levinson	8/9/04 3:25 a.m.
Re: Eternally Bored - and bugged	goran	8/9/04 4:06 a.m.
Re: Eternally Bored - and bugged	Adam Ashwell	8/9/04 6:19 a.m.
Re: Eternally Bored - and bugged	goran	8/9/04 7:34 a.m.
Re: Eternally Bored - and bugged	Adam Ashwell	8/9/04 7:43 a.m.
Re: Eternally Bored - and bugged	goran	8/9/04 7:50 a.m.
Re: Eternally Bored - and bugged	Adam Ashwell	8/9/04 8:08 a.m.
Burning in the light of the moon	Forrest of B.org	8/9/04 11:32 p.m.
Re: Burning in the light of the moon	Adam Ashwell	8/10/04 5:02 a.m.
Re: Eternally Bored - and bugged	Lunair	8/9/04 9:59 a.m.
Re: Eternally Bored - and bugged	Blayne	8/9/04 2:16 p.m.
Re: Eternally Bored - and bugged	goran	8/9/04 3:18 p.m.
Re: Eternally Bored - and bugged	Adam Ashwell	8/9/04 6:26 a.m.
Re: Eternally Bored - and bugged	Adam Ashwell	8/9/04 6:57 a.m.
Re: Eternally Bored - and bugged	Steve Levinson	8/10/04 4:41 p.m.
Don't let this go to your head	Steve Levinson	8/11/04 9:00 a.m.
Re: Don't let this go to your head	Adam Ashwell	8/11/04 9:21 a.m.
Re: Eternally Bored - and bugged	Adam Ashwell	8/9/04 10:30 a.m.
Re: Eternally Bored - and bugged	Steve Levinson	8/9/04 5:23 p.m.
Anyone notice that Enforcers can't kill you? NM	a disreputable source	8/8/04 8:20 p.m.
Yes - 1 of the bugs - Ernie, is this your fault? NM	Steve Levinson	8/8/04 8:48 p.m.
Re: Yes - 1 of the bugs - Ernie, is this your faul	Forrest of B.org	8/8/04 10:02 p.m.
Re: Yes - 1 of the bugs - Ernie, is this your faul	Ori	8/8/04 11:10 p.m.
Re: Yes - 1 of the bugs - Ernie, is this your faul	goran	8/9/04 12:58 a.m.
Re: Yes - 1 of the bugs - Ernie, is this your faul	Adam Ashwell	8/9/04 5:57 a.m.
Re: Yes - 1 of the bugs - Ernie, is this your faul	blake37	8/9/04 6:03 a.m.
Re: Yes - 1 of the bugs - Ernie, is this your faul	Adam Ashwell	8/9/04 6:03 a.m.
Re: Yes - 1 of the bugs - Ernie, is this your faul	Yossarian	8/9/04 6:55 a.m.
Re: Yes - 1 of the bugs - Ernie, is this your faul	Adam Ashwell	8/9/04 7:03 a.m.
Re: Yes - 1 of the bugs	Blayne	8/9/04 3:40 p.m.
Re: Eternally Bored	Adam Ashwell	8/9/04 5:40 a.m.
Re: Eternally Bored	Adam Ashwell	8/9/04 5:41 a.m.
Re: Eternally Bored	goran	8/9/04 7:44 a.m.
Re: Eternally Bored	Johannes Gunnar	8/9/04 8:04 a.m.
Re: Eternally Bored	Adam Ashwell	8/9/04 8:06 a.m.
Re: Eternally Bored	Forrest of B.org	8/9/04 9:04 a.m.
Re: Eternally Bored	Adam Ashwell	8/9/04 9:16 a.m.
Re: Eternally Bored	Forrest of B.org	8/9/04 9:25 a.m.
Re: Eternally Bored	Adam Ashwell	8/9/04 9:41 a.m.
Re: Eternally Bored	Adam Ashwell	8/9/04 9:45 a.m.
I hate this title	Forrest of B.org	8/9/04 2:09 p.m.
Re: I hate this title	Forrest of B.org	8/9/04 2:27 p.m.
Re: I hate this title	Adam Ashwell	8/9/04 2:49 p.m.
Re: I hate this title	Forrest of B.org	8/9/04 3:00 p.m.
Re: I hate this title	Adam Ashwell	8/9/04 3:05 p.m.
Re: I hate this title	Adam Ashwell	8/9/04 3:13 p.m.
Re: I hate this title	goran	8/9/04 4:07 p.m.
Re: I hate this title	Adam Ashwell	8/9/04 4:12 p.m.
Re: I hate this title	blake37	8/9/04 3:50 p.m.
Re: I hate this title	deathmonger	8/9/04 5:11 p.m.
I'd hate to see you really fly off the handle	Steve Levinson	8/9/04 6:03 p.m.
A lesson for us all	Plague Bearer aka Nick	8/9/04 8:09 p.m.
Re: A lesson for us all	D-M.A.	8/10/04 8:34 a.m.
Re: A lesson for us all	blake37	8/10/04 8:44 a.m.
Trojan infected PC = porn spam bot NM	D-M.A.	8/10/04 9:33 a.m.
fun, i'll send your comp a get well card	blake37	8/10/04 11:06 a.m.
Re: Trojan infected PC = porn spam bot	deathmonger	8/10/04 12:17 p.m.
Re: I hate this title	Jacke	8/10/04 5:16 a.m.
Re: I hate this title	D-M.A.	8/10/04 8:26 a.m.
Re: Eternally Bored	blake37	8/9/04 6:02 a.m.
On TC, everything attacks from the start NM	Steve Levinson	8/9/04 5:42 p.m.
ok, then im just a wuss ;-) NM	blake37	8/10/04 4:17 a.m.
Re: Eternally Bored	Forrest of B.org	8/10/04 8:10 a.m.
Re: Eternally Bored	blake37	8/10/04 8:34 a.m.



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	Message: : I am very angry and at work right now so I'll try to make this brief and not : full of profanity. : I've spent my entire goddamned life trying to measure up to other people's : standards, which are always rising, and by the time I meet what was the : standard when I started it's risen again. This is why Eternal was never : released in the eight mother fucking years it was in initial development. : It was gonna be ten maps - just ten little maps, each about as big as an : M1 map. Then, oh no, see, your levels all have to be 1024 polys. Not only : that, if they don't emply _ALL THESE NEW AND LATEST TRICKS_ then you're a : worthless excuse for a human being. (Look at Bungie's maps. They're REALLY : FUCKING SIMPLE and low-poly 'boxy' rooms like you all despise, and yet you : still worship them). And then EVIL comes out... and now you have to have : all new monsters, and weapons, and textures too. Oh yeah, and of course a : whole new interface. But whoa look at this, scenarios with LOTS OF EXTRA : TEXTURES, and stacked monsters, now you need even MORE NEW SHIT. Now : there's A1, it all has to be hires, you need music, rearrange everything : with MML, it has to run on Windows too, OH but make make sure you maintain : OS9 compatibility too! And who the FUCK cares anymore anyway? Marathon is : old, outdated lores SHIT that nobody gives a flying fuck about, you'd : think in a community for something like that you could finally hit some : kind of ceiling and say "this is good enough". By the time I : ever make anything that's good enough for modern standards, that won't be : modern anymore and I'll have wasted my time, so in that case I don't see : why the fuck I should do anything at all. : Eternal will be released as I have planned it. CONSTRUCTIVE CRITICISM that is : NOT COMPARISON TO OTHERS (especially shit that hasn't even been released : coughSigmacough) is welcome. Steve's comments have been generally nice : and useful. Adam, Simon, Goran, you just make me feel like shit. Do NOT : say "well it's not as good as X", or "the standard has been : raised, it's just not up to par". Do not imply that I am going about : things all wrong and should just start over or redo everything. (I've done : that four times already). And ESPECIALLY don't tell me that it's OK that I : suck compared to so-and-so because so-and-so is just so much better than : everyone. : I know I suck. At everything. My entire life is one big fat vat of : mediocrity. I literally, physically beat the fuck out of myself over it : every day. If Eternal reflects that, then at least it's accurate.
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